Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Sometimes We Never Know What We Have Missed Until GOD Touches Us Miraculously!

Sometimes one does not know what they have been missing until GOD opens either their eyes, their ears...and heart...or all three.

When one lives life from birth not being able to see but a range of vision between the size of a nickel or a quarter...not able to judge distances at all...

How can he or she, like me...enjoy a sunrise or sunset as it's meant to be?

How does one have the concept of a mountain range...whether The Smokies or Appalachians ...
If one cannot even see one entire mountain in one simultaneous view but needs to move one's eyes just to see parts of only one?

I remember through out my life at all sorts of ages...being hit by cars, trucks and even once almost
sucked up under a bus by centrifical force.

I remember once a single mother way back in the early 80's when my son who is now 29 years old...but then was between 5 and 10...

My son & I would hold hands singing new songs joyfully as we would walk and skip along sidewalks...

And often it was he who would hold me back as a speeding car or truck went by!

Not because I was not paying attention...for I would spend much time and take caution...
But when ones total range of vision is not even the size of a quarter...

It is impossible to see all things...hence why all my life until GOD healed and opened my eyes...
My entire body was all bruised up!

I recall as a child when I would get to swim with my brothers anywhere...my father calling me out of the pool and when I would come running he would say: "Turn around!" "Again!"

Making me feel saddened as he and the men would count my band-aids and laugh...then he would send me away!

But never in my life did anyone take me serious when I would fall or trip on something... "But I did not see it!"

"Why don't you watch where you are going and often I would get popped or slapped for being careless...."When are you going to learn anything?"

So now I have experienced my first panorama photos and roadside views...of mountaintops and meadows and now can even see you! Your whole face at one time that is!

You too never need be blue no matter what you face or what challenges you!

No matter how difficult a task...when we Seek GOd's Face from early morn till dark...HE will carry us!

Blessings!

EstherStephanada!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Do You Have Compassionate Eyes?

Do you have eyes that can see the pain inside another's heart...

 Eyes that never turn away from pain;
But show love and kindness to those in need or who are hurting possibly grieving from great loss...

Eyes that transfer strength and hope to one who is lost?

Sometimes when we take the time to slow down to feel another's pain and lift them up that they nor one-self will ever be the same....
   

We receive much more than we give... we receive the heart of a new friend.
 
Friendships and relationships are the only things that survive death... soon and very soon there will be no time left.

So make sure your relationships are good, worthy to be admired for you do not want to spend Eternity in Eternal Fire!


EstherStephanada!

Friday, July 9, 2010

EUCHARISTIC MIRACLES..... I WAS ALMOST BLIND AND NOW I SEE!!

EstherStephanada Very happy with her future husband in February 1997.


Subject: I RECEIVED GREAT EUCHARISTIC MIRACLE IN YOUR MASS TODAY! ST JOSEPH's CHURCH PALM BAY FLORIDA 9:45 MASS FEAST of The HOLY FAMILY
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From: Stephie Gustavson

Sunday December 27, 2009
Feast of The Holy Family
Dear Fr. Dennis!
Or would you rather be called "Father Clearly" ?? For I can SEE MORE .... And MORE CLEARLY than ever in my life!
The lives of anyone who both Knows and Loves GOD has Miracles chasing them down and all around where ever they go!
I am sure your life is not an exception... I write you not to brag about myself.... But rather HIS Written Word says: "Let the redeemed of the Lord Say So!
And what GOD has done for me to even keep me alive to this day that I may even be alive still today, that I may have walked into ST Joseph's for your MASS, received Communion on my tongue as I have my entire life....
Today, I am almost a half a century I am.... 49!
My Lord for the first time ever in my life fell from my mouth, and my hands flew to catch HIM! That in itself you must realize was a Miracle that I could catch because before, I could not see!
I was in the birth canal for over 10 minutes with a flattened cord.... born dead and recesitated had brain damage that baffled all doctors whoever met me. And my eyes cast to the side and I had eye muscle surgery at 3 months old.
I have never had any depth perception nor peripheral vision my entire life...

I since arriving in Florida, where priests were leaving out Mass parts...going from the Our Father and a sign of peace directly to distributing Communion... giving me not the opportunity and my need to fall upon my knees to say: "Lord I am not worthy, but only say the word and I shall be healed."

Struggling interiorly because of this, intellectually knowing GOD protects the innocent lay folks from the sins of the priest, yet that is because, or I have always thought because no one but GOD really knows the condition of any soul.... so how could anyone such as myself make a judgement to not go to a particular priest's Mass.

But in the case of leaving out Mass parts, and most of all congregations like the priest were also not reverent of The Lord's presence in the church's tabernacle and not even during the Consecration. Everyone was standing, not kneeling for the Consecration except for me and most were standing around with their hip stuck out and irritated watching their watches ...How much longer?

Well Jesus in his speaking of being the Good Shepherd said "My sheep hear My Voice and no other voice will they follow!" So if priests do not even reverence the Consecration of Jesus in their own hands... who following them will?

And thus it was because of this grieving GOD did a miracle for me!

While I was grieving not knowing to go receive or not, for I knew and understood that he was leaving out Mass parts and both the priests in most all churches in Florida we had been to up to this point were doing so.

I grieved over these young ones whose only examples are these... how can they learn to truly Love GOD?
Jesus appeared to me in dazzling white and said to me: "If you do not come receive me worthily, who will?"

I cringed, because, I know I fall short of HIS Glory! All have sinned! I know that all accomplished by me, was not accomplished by me, but by HIM through me. I know how little I understand when I am not in union with HIM.
And when I received on my tongue today and My Lord fell as I struggled to catch him...
I heard HIM say: " I did that" HE was on my wrist which has hurt for years from computer use, crochet... I realized when I heard HIS voice and when we hear HIS voice we are to harden not our heart regardless where we are!
I realized HE wanted to heal me, I let HIM rest on my wrist before lifting HIM from my breast as I lowered my head to consume HIM.
I rubbed my other wrist against where HE had layed on my other one...
Praying that not just the pain in my left wrist and arm... but the pain in both wrists and arms and cricking cracking coming into my knees I believed for too...
For Fr Harold Cohen taught me long ago to always be Esther! His woman and GOD's who never takes no for an answer ...
Who never settles for less than GOD's best and that nothing is too big or to small to request!
For we worship a GOD of more More More... and not a GOD of less or just enough!
Our GOD Almighty... My Sugar Daddy since I was born in 1960...
Actually yearns to give me and each child of HIS infinitely more than any of us can ask think dream or imagine!
So I was not about to settle for just one wrist and arm healed and seriously improved vision which is still improving now as I type!
HE did when I was on my knees in ST Joseph's, just after receiving HIM, spoke to me an instruction. " Go to my seashore and sing to me upon your knees at the seashore and cast into my ocean all your mountains and those of all whom you love!"
And so I did!
My Billy and me went up onto the beach in the same place we have been each day for weeks, we layed out my fleece robe upon which he sleeps.
I got upon my knees and began to sing new songs of thanksgiving, love and praise.
My Billy-Jacob wanted me to be quiet I was attracting too much attention...
But I was not about to buckle again under his pressure! See GOD has held me accountable before for obeying my husband under his pressure instead of the LORD!
So I sang even with greater exuberance greater Faith and fervor! My Billy-Jacob left me on the beach due to his embarrassment!
I sang all sorts of things casting specific infirmities of mine, my husband's, and of many people we know... that HE could wash them away permanently as HIS tide rolled back out!
I danced and ran jumped as I sang stretching out my arms and legs...
There were many observers but I hardly knew they were there....
For both Fr Harold Cohen, Fr Joe Dionne and Mother Angelica taught me well in this department!
Mother Angelica always says: We are all called to be great Saints do not miss the opportunity! And if you want GOD to do the impossible you must be willing to do the Ridiculous!!!!

And if we are ashamed of HIM publicly, HE will not speak for us before HIS Heavenly Father!
So I was determined I was not going to lose my healings and not be satisfied with just....
I am grabbing for HIS better and best ... I could never be accused of being a Martha Martha....
That was my husband along the beach.... " Billy Billy your EstherStephanada has chosen the better part and it will not be taken from her... you can choose have it too if you do not quiet her!"
My Billy did return and sat on a bench far from me and watched me dance shaking his head saying "I came here to rest!"
Eventually I danced over to My Personal Elder in Heaven's Gate....
Come on Billy dance with me.... Lead me and I will follow!
He brought me back to where he had left my robe and he laid down and went to sleep and asked me to do the same....
I rested next to him but stayed awake watching! I laid my hands and wrists over the different parts of him that have pain from arthritis, varicose veins, his tennitis ears that do not hear so well... I spoke to all these infirmities you have no authority in his body, mine nor those we love!
Monday
December 28, 2009
And my husband and I are both pain free now PRAISE BE TO GOD...
I am still asking GOD with great expectation to heal Billy's varicose veins completely...
They appear much better!
I began typing this as soon after we left the beach following your Mass... but when it got dark
I could not complete, so here I am!
I have been blogging about GOD's Miracles since February 2009... Here are a few links I have over 30 and it would Bless me and the Lord if you not only go onto them and read them, but click the comment buttons on them and write to me on the blog pages and click where it will say either "Become a Follower" or "Be the First" or "Friend connect and invite those in your email contact list to do the same!
Because though I do what GOD instructs me to, and I am registering them with search engines...
The ones that show up the most when anyone searches the topics I write about are those with many Followers and comments!
I praise GOD we were at your Mass yesterday and not another..
We look forward to hearing from you! GOD Bless you always!
EstherStephanada & Billy-Jacob
William & Stephanie Gustavson
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Hello Fathers!
I was wonderful meeting both of you, Fr Cleary on Sunday... and you, Fr Hoeffner today
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Subject: EUCHARISTIC MIRACLES..... I WAS ALMOST BLIND AND NOW I SEE!!
Hello,
Not only can I see a much larger range than just the tiny cone of area as before....
I am now actually able to pick out my typos that cause email to come back to me. Those of you who have known me the longest, know I always needed an email sent to me first...
For me to click onto to ensure proper delivery!
What GOD has done for me and for us... HE will do for anyone for HE is not a respecter of persons but FAITH... and ALL it Takes is a Mustard grain seed of it and you like I can speak to your Mountains of sickness, pain, debt, headaches of any kind in your life or the lives of your loved ones and cast them into the deepest part of the sea and be gone forever Amen and Alleluia... FAITH & not doubt is All you need!
Nothing is impossible! But Rather ALL Things ARE POSSIBLE with & for GOD! PRAISE THE LORD! AMEN AMEN!
Since GOD is bringing my Billy-Jacob state to state with his teaching program, we are rarely going to be able to attend the same Catholic Church more than once or twice... We will not be changing our Church Parish Registration.
It makes no sense. Our Lord Jesus went town to town spreading HIS Gospel, but always returned to Jerusalem
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Subject: I RECEIVED GREAT EUCHARISTIC MIRACLE IN YOUR MASS TODAY! ST JOSEPH's CHURCH PALM BAY FLORIDA 9:45 MASS FEAST of The HOLY FAMILY
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From: Stephie Gustavson

Sunday December 27, 2009
Feast of The Holy Family
Dear Fr. Dennis!
Or would you rather be called "Father Clearly" ?? For I can SEE MORE .... And MORE CLEARLY than ever in my life!
The lives of anyone who both Knows and Loves GOD has Miracles chasing them down and all around where ever they go!
I am sure your life is not an exception... I write you not to brag about myself.... But rather HIS Written Word says: "Let the redeemed of the Lord Say So!
And what GOD has done for me to even keep me alive to this day that I may even be alive still today, that I may have walked into ST James for your MASS, received Communion on my tongue as I have my entire life....
Today, I am almost a half a century I am.... 49!
My Lord for the first time ever in my life fell from my mouth and my hands flew to catch HIM! That in itself you must realize was a Miracle that I could catch because before I could not see!
I was in the birth canal for over 10 minutes with a flattened cord.... born dead and resuscitated had brain damage that baffled all doctors whoever met me. And my eyes cast to the side and I had eye muscle surgery at 3 months old.
I have never had any depth perception nor peripheral vision my entire life...
And when I recieved on my tongue today and My Lord fell asI struggled to catch him...
I heard HIM say: " I did that" HE was on my wrist which has hurt for years from computer use, crochet... I realized when I heard HIS voice and when we hear HIS voice we are to harden not our heart regardless where we are!
I realized HE wanted to heal me, I let HIM rest on my wrist before lifting HIM from my breast as I lowered my head to consume HIM.
I rubbed my other wrist against where HE had layed on my other one...
Praying that not just the pain in my left wrist and arm... but the pain in both wrists and arms and cricking cracking coming into my knees I believed for too...
ForFr Harold Cohen taught me long ago to alwaysbe Esther! His woman and GOD's who never takes no for an answer ...
Who never settles for less than GOD's best and that nothing is too big or to small to request!
For we worship a GOD of more More More... and not a GOD of less or just enough!
Our GOD Amighty... My Sugar Daddy since I was born in 1960...
Actually yearns to give me and each child of HIS infanitely more than any of us can ask think dream or imagine!
So I was not about to settle for just one wrist and arm healed and seriously improved vision which is still improving now as I type!
HE did when I was on my knees in ST Joseph's, just after receiving HIM, spoke to me an instruction. " Go to my seashore and sing to me upon your knees at the seashore and cast into my ocean all your mountains and those of all whom you love!"
And so I did!
My Billy and me went up onto the beach in the same place we have been each day for weeks, we layed out my fleecerobe upon which he sleeps.
I got upon my knees and began to sing new songs of thanksgiving, love and praise.
My Billy-Jacob wanted me to be quiet I wasattracting too much attention...
But I was not about to buckle again under his pressure! See GOD has held me accountable before for obeying my husband under his pressure instead of the LORD!
So I sang even with greater exuberance greater Faith and fervor! My Billy-Jacob left me on the beach due to his embarrassment!
I sang all sorts of things casting specific imfirmaties of mine, my husband's, and many specificones of many people I know... that HE could wash them away permanently as HIS tide rolled back out!
I dancedI ran jumped as I sang stretching out my arms and legs...
There were many observers but I hardly knew they were there....
For both Fr Harold Cohen, Fr joe Dionne and Mother Angelica taught me well in this department!
Mother Angelica always says: We are all called to be great Saints do not miss the oppertunity! Andd if you want GOD to do the impossible you must be willing to do the RIdiculous!!!!
So I was determined I was not going to lose my healings and not be satisfied with just....
I am grabbing for HIS better and best ... I could never beaccused of being a Martha Martha....
That was my husband along the beach.... " Billy Billy your EstherStephanada has chosen the better part and it will not be taken from her... you can choose have it too if you do not quiet her!"
My Billy did return and sat on a bench far from me and watched me danceshaking his head saying "I came here to rest!"
Eventually I danced over to My Personal Elder in Heaven's Gate....
Come on Billy dance with me.... Lead me and I will follow!
He brought me back to where he had left my robe and he laid down and went to sleep and asked me to do the same....
I rested next to him but stayed awake watching! I laid my hands and wrists over the different parts of him that have pain from arthritis, varacose veins, histenitis ears that do not hearso well... I spoke to all these infirmities you have no authotity in his body, mine nor those we love!
Monday
December 28, 2009
And my husband and I are both pain free now PRAISE BE TO GOD...
I am still asking GOD with great expectation to heal Billy's varicose viens completely...
They appear much better!
I began typing this as soon after we left the beach following your Mass... but when it got dark
I could not complete, so here I am!
I have been blogging about GOD's Miracles since February 2009... Here are a few links I have over 30 andit would Bless me and the Lord if you not only go onto them andread them, but click the comment buttons on them and write to me on the blogpagesandclick where it will say either "Become a Follower" or "Be the First" or "Friend connect and invite those in your email contact list to do the same!
Because though I do what GOD instructs me to, and I am registering them with search engines...
The ones that show up the most when anyone searches the topics I write about are those with many Followers and comments!
I praise GOD we were at your Mass yesterday and not another... for now we consider you family Father!!!
We look foward to hearing from you! GOD Bless you always!
EstherStephanada & Billy-Jacob
William & Stephanie Gustavson
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From: Les Schmidt
Date: Sat, Jan 2, 2010 at 3:07 PM
To: Stephie Gustavson

Stephanie and Bill,
Thanks for sharing the good news on your Eucharistic miracle.

Have received both your phone calls and your emails.

Will be back in Charlotte on Sunday evening and will give you a call. LS
Les Schmidt




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From: Teresa Kemp Date: Sun, Jan 3, 2010 at 7:00 PM
To: Stephie Gustavson

Hi Stephanie,
that's a Great picture -- and also great news about your healing. you have wonderful faith.

I had a friend that gave me a good teaching on "be submissive to your husband". It was a lesson about "trusting God" and really submitting to God in the ordinary things. There is no conflict when following the word of God
- if, for example, I, the wife would rather do some praise and worship but my husband wants me to be quiet and to sit down and watch the news with him, I can submit to the husband as an 'act of submitting to God' and I can 'let God be in the ordinary moment' of watching tv. I've learned that 'a good way' is not better than "God's way". God has done more when I have done less- it's a "let go and let God" kind of thing...

I just want to encourage you to not think that you have to "choose God " over your husband. God has taken care of that. If you refrain from singing and dancing aloud because your husband asks you to, it is both honoring God and your husband to make the sacrifice. Besides, your spirit can sing and dance and pray even when your outer self is quiet. I believe that God does use our husbands to do "His will". For example, maybe God knew of someone on the beach who really needed to hear His voice-----maybe the "quiet" would have suited His purpose better. The sound of the waves makes me think of God.
Well, I better get off--getting late-
, I hope you guys are staying warm! I know it is cold even in Florida now. It's been in the twenties and the wind has been blowing----

I'm keeping guys in prayer-
take care
love ya,
Teresa

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Hi Teresa,

I aggree with you Teresa; I wish it was refraining that sort of stuff was the issue.

Stephie