"GOOD GRIEF......WILL Anyone ever see what I see?????"

Realizing this will post today's date April 28 2019, I found this in drafts unpublished....but it was composed January 2014



How is it that I who lived 49 years in almost physical darkness could even then see the obvious before all physically  sighted folks still refuse to acknowledge but continue to ignore the truth that has stared them in their faces their entire lives but they refuse to accept into their hearts which are tender ; loving...

And therefore they refuse to acknowledge callousness within anyone they love...

So they ignore for a few weeks visit until they can return to their palaces high upon hills remote from true family interactions of those who deceive.

When anyone is not content & happy in their own life with their own wife...it is typically because their hearts have voids that only the one true Triune God can fill.

Because they do not have God living & reigning in their hearts and lives they are not satisfied regardless how much they own or how much control they have in choosing for themselves...they need to fell powerful to feel important because they have never in their 70...80 sometimes 90 years of life have never loved because they have not received true love in their hearts for a first time not even from themselves or each other.

They equate: love, happiness, and success all rolled up in one ideal which is : POWER!

POWER to control...POWER to attain, take or force upon others what they want....

And this is not a love relationship at all.

It is not even a relationship of any kind but a plain and simple attack of oneself upon others.

When ever anyone is not content and happy in their own life and they meet a couple such as William & I who never suffer strife of any kind until someone outside of our marriage sometimes a geographical neighbor, a cousin or an uncle....sometimes even members of our own Catholic Church Family

Look at us camping and going from place to place in their estimations:  "Enjoying life too much...much more than them!!!"  

And so their backs go up in anger because they have their employment positions they must report to...they must WORK and meet deadlines on time!

Or they have small children they are responsible for who they see themselves tied down.

They think "IT's NOT FAIR that you just bop from State Park to grocery & church parking lots....

That is how Jesus Christ & HIS apostles lived sort of...

During the last 3 years of the Lord's life...HIS ministering years he & HIS disciples walked all day towards each new destination embracing whatever happened or befell them along their way with a gift they were giving to each one who was bold enough to embrace and receive into their hearts with great joy, love, thanksgiving...and receive the gift of trusting FAITH.

Each who chose to receive God's best received MIRACLES and they like us when they went out to all whom they loved were either joyfully received & received the same spiritual gifts or the absolute opposite were totally rejected and told that they were too different to be a part of the clicky friends group or clicky "Blood Relative Family group

This is what scriptures mean that say:  "If they hate ME they will hate you...but blessed or you who are scoffed and hated just because of ME...blessed blessed are you!!!"

Blessed, Blessed are my William and I when others including father & mother...neighbors uncle and many cousins...

Out of jealousy for they have never in their lives had the peace that surpasses all understanding reign in their personal households at any time.

We have been told to rent another apartment, but my husband & I refuse to ever sign another lease or to live where others have keys and authority over us and where we live.

Although our home loan was not approved we are applying to other avenues and meanwhile we will visit a friend for a "little while" and William will help the father of the household set up and establish his own "Handyman Business".  William promises to teach him job costing, estimating, and even refining his carpentry skills.

And we will live in their home during this undefined length period...

This is God's plan for giving William experience doing what he will teach inmates and former inmates in the not so distance future.

There are many who oppose what we do...but before they knew us...

Even my mother and father despised Jesus before they gave birth to me.... their only daughter who was not born into life but born into death, resuscitated born with many challenges both physical and mental

And how is it that they today cannot receive into their hearts the joy that I was physically blind & now I see landscapes and full length drapes.

Yet they instead of sharing in our joy and peace rather cling to their self-righteousness which allows them to remain in their own minds superior.

William & I cannot choose for them.

Nor can you choose for your neighbor, sister, brother, mother father aunt uncle or cousin.

It is better to grieve their choices for just a little while...

Move on to the next place just as Jesus and HIS disciples did...and offer the next community the same:  The gift of joy, hope love and the peace that surpasses all understanding...

just as the Lord did...remembering the next community too may likewise not want us among them too.

But we will refuse to be blue...wear blue instead.

And from the moment we wake up on our cot within our Bloody Red Montana Van in his parks

It is all paid for!!

Yeah Amen!

Today I still  live  not using credit. 

The borrower is always the slave to the lender.

Mr & Mrs William Gustavson

Turn Around Watch Where Your Going.. You Don't Have Eyes In Back of Your Head!......... Or Do You?? I Do...and You Can Too!

Turn around!  Pay Attention!  Your Eyes Aren't Put Out And They Aren't in Back of Your Head!

 

I can hear it clearly as loud as it was cackled at me when I was a child and through my teenage years

 

But if you like me..follow the Lord closely obediently...

HE remains both before you leading you and behind you defending you from your foes before they can cause you harm...now HIS eyes never miss anything...

 

So whether you or I are not payin attention to what they the fakey flakes or commanding or saying while listening carefully to each of HIS directions to your heart...

You are far better off than having lots of sets of eyes security guarding you.

 

And even if you are physically blind like I once was for real...before HE gave me a Eucharistic MIRACLE...

Maybe you are using one of those who are fortunate enough to have a computer that is reading this aloud to you...for your eyes are dimming...

 

The One who always was and still is...who sits upon the throne above...watching waiting and listening for you to ask HIM outloud for what is not believing HE is both willing and able to do all things...HE is watching you now waiting for you...So open your mouth now and ask HIM to see...expecting your eyes to be opened NOW...those of you who cannot hear...Hear now...

 

For God's promises are for all...listen not any longer to the irratable sour graper...

But to the only True Vine and Vine Grower...reach out to and you will be glad you acknowledged the "Eyes" that are forever upon you!

 

Amen Amen Amen!

Mr & Mrs William Gustavson

PO Box 1144

Ponchatoula LA 70454

Have You Ever Been Told That You Have Tunnel Vision or That You See All Thing s Through Rose Colored Glasses?

There is a great chance that you, like me, were told through life:

"See things for what they really are and not through "Rose Colored Glasses!"

Or possibly you were accused of having "Tunnel Vision" keeping your focus on only one thing!

If you have remained focused as I have since small upon what is above and not below...
If you have kept your eyes on HIM whom others have never seen for they lack FAITH and refuse to believe...

Refuse to see what is not yet but could be and speak of it as though it already is....
That HE who watches over HIS Holy Word spoken with FAITH of mere mustard dust....

Will perform it for us!

Tunnel vision of this sort is to be both admired and sought...
For he and she who have obtained such a gift shall never be lost!

So next time you are accused for singing only one tune and never being blue...
When you are accused of seeing and appreciating what you have and not noticing what you lack...

Rejoice with me as we dance into The House of The Lord!
Rejoice and coninue to sing HIM new songs even when their complaints hit an uproar!

And I can even proclaim that I had physical tunnel vision FOR REAL...but no more...
AS I offer HIM and you my laughter and cheer....I PRAISE HIM singing....

For though I should have been lost for sure ...at no time I ever was!!

HE did my seeing for me then and I continue to let HIM now...
HE yearns to both see and light your path too...but HE can only if we let HIM!


Amen Amen Amen and Alleluia!

Three Blind Mice....See How They RUN..............???

Most of us born in the 1960's or earlier, are familiar to the tune...Three Blind Mice...Three Blind Mice...

SEE HOW THEY RUN....see how they run.....They all ran after the farmers wife...she cut off their tails with a carving knife...

Well I grew up with two younger brothers who in the eyes of my parents and many others could do no wrong...

Not that everything any two children did...or do is right...correct or worthy of praise.

I remember as small children along with the neighborhood children in our Alice Birney classrooms being taught that not all are born with the same ability we were  told to make believe that we were totally blind.

We were of coarse sitting in our desks not standing or playing.   I can remember thinking and saying out loud
"This is not much different than when my eyes are open!"

Everyone laughed!  Even the teacher said: "Stephanie that is impossible!"  And the comedy show continued!

It was comedy to everyone but me.   I on the other hand from my perspective not able to physically see what others saw...being absolutely clueless what any one saw....I often wondered how do they know what I can see and what I could see not?

Then when Advent would begin each year we would all sing that song: 
"DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE????  DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE???  A CHILD??? A CHILD SLEEPING IN THE NIGHT...."

I often wondered how is it that all of these must see what ever it is that I cannot see....Yet they do not seem to see me...?    How is it they say:  "Pretend that you cannot see my desk or yours...or the paper which you do your home work on." ?  How is it they play make believe and laugh...

While I experience the same with my eyes open and my heart knows and sees much more than they may ever know.

On the school bus ride home some of the other children were still playing "Blind Games" many fell down like clowns because they were not paying attention...yet sometimes I would be the one to catch them...

That they not knock their own teeth out or down their own throat...I never received thank you's from them...
But from The Lord of Hosts.

Once home my brothers and neighbor children...gathered still laughing at all the "Blind Games"  and the record or the cartoon on television would play:  "Three Blind Mice...SEE HOW THEY RUN>>>>>>>>>>>>>"

They would walk or run behind one another with their arms extended pretending to be "Sleep Walking" or to be a "Ghost" like on "SCOOBY DOOBY DOooooooooosey"  Our Mom would say adding to the play "The Blind leading the blind??"  

I would say: "I do it all the time!"  She would go on about her house work laughing hysterically hard....saying:
"Stephanie your going to be a comedian one day!"  and I would say: "Why what's so funny?"

She would laugh even harder that she would have to make a MADdddddddd dash to the toilet...
She could really laugh but never hold her bladder.

No one wanted me on their ball team...a Blind catcher?  Blind Pitcher or Batter?
Though no one recognized my physical blindness for what it was...

When it came to playing" Blind Games or Sleep Walking"  I had life long daily minute by minute practice and I must say I had an unseen advantage!

No one ever noticed that playing these games I had no more accidents than any other time.  In fact I had fewer because...I the blind had to lead the blind!

I became more cautious than usual.  It amazes me looking back that not my mother nor anyone else    ever "SAW WHAT I SAW ...or more importantly what I saw not!

I never "Got" what they did...they just seemed either so ridiculous...stupid or at times even retarded.  For they used these very words to describe me...  Yet how is it I had the sight of understanding....

I was accused of telling tall tales that I could be a Gilda Radner!

  I am sure that even today these same adults would laugh no differently than they did 40+ years ago at me...
Saying:  "You should be on Ed Sullivan Show" and later on....on "HEEEEEEEEeeeeee--HEEEE HAW HAW HAWwwwwwwwwww He-HAW!

I know that I could have kept them laughing better than Gilda Radner....with out telling big fibbers from a giant rocker....

AND THAT'S THE TRUTH! 

SO HELP ME GOD!

EstherStephanada...   Leading the Blind!

Imagine if you were completely blind...for the Word of GOD says the Blind shall see and the sighted be made blind...which shall you be at the end of all time?

One month left until Walk like MADD Charlotte

Driving drunk is no different from driving totally BLIND...Nor any different than driving while cell phone chatting or texting....either are a CRIME!

 

 

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From: Craig Lloyd, MADD North Carolina <craig.lloyd@madd.org>
Date: Wed, May 11, 2011 at 12:42 PM
Subject: One month left until Walk like MADD Charlotte

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Sometimes We Never Know What We Have Missed Until GOD Touches Us Miraculously!

Sometimes one does not know what they have been missing until GOD opens either their eyes, their ears...and heart...or all three.

When one lives life from birth not being able to see but a range of vision between the size of a nickel or a quarter...not able to judge distances at all...

How can he or she, like me...enjoy a sunrise or sunset as it's meant to be?

How does one have the concept of a mountain range...whether The Smokies or Appalachians ...
If one cannot even see one entire mountain in one simultaneous view but needs to move one's eyes just to see parts of only one?

I remember through out my life at all sorts of ages...being hit by cars, trucks and even once almost
sucked up under a bus by centrifical force.

I remember once a single mother way back in the early 80's when my son who is now 29 years old...but then was between 5 and 10...

My son & I would hold hands singing new songs joyfully as we would walk and skip along sidewalks...

And often it was he who would hold me back as a speeding car or truck went by!

Not because I was not paying attention...for I would spend much time and take caution...
But when ones total range of vision is not even the size of a quarter...

It is impossible to see all things...hence why all my life until GOD healed and opened my eyes...
My entire body was all bruised up!

I recall as a child when I would get to swim with my brothers anywhere...my father calling me out of the pool and when I would come running he would say: "Turn around!" "Again!"

Making me feel saddened as he and the men would count my band-aids and laugh...then he would send me away!

But never in my life did anyone take me serious when I would fall or trip on something... "But I did not see it!"

"Why don't you watch where you are going and often I would get popped or slapped for being careless...."When are you going to learn anything?"

So now I have experienced my first panorama photos and roadside views...of mountaintops and meadows and now can even see you! Your whole face at one time that is!

You too never need be blue no matter what you face or what challenges you!

No matter how difficult a task...when we Seek GOd's Face from early morn till dark...HE will carry us!

Blessings!

EstherStephanada!

Do You Have Compassionate Eyes?

Do you have eyes that can see the pain inside another's heart...

 Eyes that never turn away from pain;
But show love and kindness to those in need or who are hurting possibly grieving from great loss...

Eyes that transfer strength and hope to one who is lost?

Sometimes when we take the time to slow down to feel another's pain and lift them up that they nor one-self will ever be the same....
   

We receive much more than we give... we receive the heart of a new friend.
 
Friendships and relationships are the only things that survive death... soon and very soon there will be no time left.

So make sure your relationships are good, worthy to be admired for you do not want to spend Eternity in Eternal Fire!


EstherStephanada!